Srijana Bhandari #Discussion 3

Nose/I feel insecure This is the very first body part of me which I kind of feel uncomfortable speaking with direct eye contact when I am not wearing glass. I feel like it’s very big compared to my face. This is sad that I do not have any positive message that has would contribute to feeling insecure about my nose in particular. My all siblings are beautiful, a perfect face I would say so I always used to look myself in the mirror and have felt insecure about it, though I know physical appearance doesn’t matter a lot sometimes we just can’t control on what we feel about it.
Hair/I embrace I love my hairs; they usually grow very fast and I have been changing a lot of hairstyles since the last couple of hairs. Also, I have heard a lot of compliments and its human nature you feel good when you hear a compliment. I had long and thick hairs since my childhood and not me, but my mother has taken care of a lot of my hair. In my culture where I grew up, a girl’s hair is taken as her dominant part of her life. I have seen and felt that when girls chop their hair too short then not directly but Indirectly, I have heard a lot of people making comments on it which would not make you feel good. So, one reason I don’t want people taking negative and another reason I love being myself in long hair, therefore I have not had very short hair.
Fingers/Makes me laugh every time I see them If someone sees my fingers by paying attention to It, then I feel like they are going to make fun of it. My fingers are weird shape, but I feel myself extra having weird shape fingers  When I reach the age, where people define, what is beauty, being perfect, or what defines not perfection, I started to analyze different parts of the body. Being born with 5 girls’ siblings, I didn’t have to go anywhere to explore how I feel about my body part. We used to sit together and compare our body parts. And after my nose, it comes finger. I never felt insure about it but like said I used to join my sisters to make fun of my fingers. They are wavy like sea waves.

Theories I believed:

All these bodies part that I have explained in the last three columns are more relatable to:
Biological theories and Cultural theories.
My two-body part “Nose” and “fingers” I was born with whatever shape these are, there is nothing I can change about these body parts besides the feeling that I can develop if people make bad comments about it or good.
The culture of girls having long hair in society has influences a very large group of female groups. And I grew up learning this culture of being a girl you need to have long hair from my mother, grandmom, my elders’ sisters and a lot of female elders.
In what ways does your embodied communication comply with the command performance?
Are there any ways you have refused a command performance? How would you explain your embodied communication using theories from the texts?
– Like I have mentioned in my chart, I won’t able to make a face to face contact when I don’t have glass on my face. I kind of try not to make any direct contact. Similarly, trying to move my fingers/hands in an unnoticeable way to the people while communicating. I believe I have refused command performance in a way that sometimes when we communicate, we forgot what we feel about our body parts and totally get lost with the topic. It’s difficult to choose particularly one as I believe all these theories are somehow related to each other directly or indirectly. Growing long hair for being a girl (social/cultural), feeling uncomfortable with what you were born with(in this case my nose- Biological) and during the process of developing these feelings as we grow up by the influence of people around us, or by what beliefs based on our family and society, we assume to be one. (Psychological and also related cognitive).