Watching the videos regarding abortion made me feel uneased. Uneased due to the women begging for them. Women writing into the Vessel for solitude of a righteous decision. No person should have to live in fear of not being able to obtain a choice, a choice that is traumatizing to begin with. I Have a life story! Growing up in a catholic environment, my reproductive rights were influenced by religious beliefs. My family was against me being put on birth control. I suffered from very painful and mentally anguishing periods. I was finally able to receive birth control when I was sixteen because I have PMDD. Which I should not have had to have a medical reason as to why I needed it. I was put on the Depo-Provera shot (which if you know anything about is the WORST birth control and I do not condone or advise) Needless to say, it was not for me or my body. I was off Depo-Provera nine months after receiving my first shot. From seventeen to twenty I tried multiple forms of birth control on and off. At twenty, I decided birth control was not conducive for my mental or body and have been natural ever since. That became MY CHOICE.  I had never been pregnant when I was younger, nor was in fear of. I went through life thinking I could never get pregnant. Me? No! Well friends, it happened. I GOT PREGNANT. I only bring this up because when watching these videos, I was reminded of my experiences. My experiences of why and, why it is totally okay for us to make the most absolute right decisions for us. My abortion was very much like the video The Abortion Divide. I had no idea what to do, I made an appointment at planned parenthood and was advised to have confirmation? My six tests weren’t enough? No! I called this place in the suburbs of Chicago (where I was living at the time) so welcoming and friendly! Set up it was! The practice was very intrusive and pro-life, I had the sonogram, they had a picture of a kidney bean with a little white speck in my uterus. I’m being serious when I say a speck, and the prolife nurse said to my ex, “hi daddy” which was very awkward with us both knowing that heartbeat was flatlined. This practice continued to text me for a year with hopes of me “making the right decision” and “I hope your snuggle bug is happy and healthy” LOL. This is all traumatizing. Was I offered healthcare? Childcare? Food? No, no I was not. I did not have health insurance at the time. How could I have a child without healthcare? Was never offered. The only thing I was offered was an unwarranted opinion. So that happened. After sonogram went to planned parenthood, I wasn’t far enough along to have the abortion pill. I had to wait until I was SIX weeks along to take pill.  My point in this ramble is the importance of reproduction rights. If this was a universal “law” and I feel so ignorant calling it a “law” it’s so much more personal than a “law” It’s a personal decision. Very personal. Personally, a fetus has the same feelings of a dead body, which is nothing.  I find it very disturbing that some states implement that six weeks is when a speck makes a decision for your life. You cannot even receive the abortion pill at least six weeks after conceiving. It’s just another notch in the oppressive mindset that we must fight for.