“Papa who wakes up in the dark” Honestly hit me hardest. I’ve experienced that kind grief when my mom passed away. It was surreal. One of my mom’s friends witnessed her suddenly fall to the ground and went to tell my dad. She had fell due to an epileptic episode. Everything that happened between my dad trying to wake her up while waiting for the ambulance to being in the hospital feeling everything from uncertainty, despair to confusion and just numbness. It was surreal and it was weird. I recall going to the bathroom and began to break down in tears while entering a fury just punching the bathroom stalls. What added to this pain was seeing my father cry. Never in my life I’ve seen him breakdown. He was always calm and stoic and to see him in that state brought immense sadness and fear. I felt guilty even though its nobody’s fault but I just didn’t know how to cope with it. It felt like we were all on a bus ride together and suddenly the bus stops and the driver tells me and my dad to get off and the driver leaves us stranded.
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Wow. First, My condolences Alex. I can’t imagine the level of pain you must have felt at that moment. I can see how this one resonated with you and I can relate. I remember the day I got the news my best friend passed away. I remember being in disbelief, thinking it was a bad joke. Then it felt like my body dropped to the floor while I was still standing, walked to my kitchen, dropped to my knees, and I let out this unhuman guttural noise and just cried. It felt like a piece of me was violently sucked out of me. Good explanation and good connection, good job Alex!