Hello, my name is Kianna Holm. I am 19 years old and this is my last semester at BMCC. I want to become an anesthesiologists, so I’m taking all my pre-reqs to get into the nursing program.\u00a0 I’m from Jamaica, Queens, NY. I’ve lived there for most of my life. During my free time I love to watch movies, listen to music and go out o new places.<\/p>\n
I come from a large family. I have 4 sisters and 6 brothers. My dad has 10 kids and my mom has 5, 4 with my dad. We didn’t all live together but we were together often. I’m the youngest girl out of the group so that did come with some benefits but I also think that it has made me think differently about genders and their roles.<\/p>\n
During most of my childhood years I’ve been really skinny. I used to get teased for it but I had older brothers so it wasn’t often I’d hear the stupid “Do your parents feed you?” comment. But of course they cant be with me all the time to defend me so I still hear it. When I got to high school I didn’t have my brothers I was by myself. The girls at my school were thick, curvy and they’ve grown breast and their bodies have formed and were still forming. Then there was me, still shopping in the kids department because that was the only thing that fit. I would wear a training bra everyday hoping to make them grow. I started to feel left out and just not the same. I started to question myself, trying to figure out if something was wrong with me. I was confused as to why haven’t I experienced any of these normal teenage phases.<\/p>\n
I met a few girls at my school who were feeling just as insecure about their bodies as I was but in a different way. I didn’t get why some of them was complaining.\u00a0 They looked great! They had everything I wanted plus some. But they didn’t like it. There were many reasons why, but the most common reason they all said was It brought them attention they didn’t like. They wanted what I had and I wanted what they had.<\/p>\n
At that time I wasn’t thinking like how they were. I felt left out so I just wanted to fit in but sometimes that’s not always the best. I didn’t even think about the things they were saying while hoping to be like them. I didn’t think that looking like that would draw attention because so much attention was drawn to me for being skinny so I thought it was normal to look like that. I thought I was out of place. I later learned that there isn’t a “normal” way to look. Everybody is different and everybody’s body is different. I realized that no matter how you look or what you do people would always have negative things to say to you.<\/p>\n
This is when I finally learned to just love myself and everything about me. Although I may not be happy with everything I have there are some people who are dying to look like me. I’ve learned a life lesson that you’re never going to be happy if you don’t love yourself. Self love is the best love, because if you truly love yourself, along with all your flaws, there’s nothing that anybody can say to take that confidence away.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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